Friday, November 21, 2008

just one more night

For the past week Jonathan has been gone to Providence, RI to attend the ETS conference. Elissa and Josiah planned a trip to keep me company while he was gone. Initially, I thought ETS would only last until Thursday, but then Jonathan told me he would not be home until late Saturday afternoon. (they have a 23 hour bus trip back). Of course, he told me after Elissa had already bought her ticket to come up and boy, was I dreading Thursday to get here.

This morning I woke up with my arm around a box of cereal. Ever creak the house made woke me up last night. At 1:00 am, I laid in bed, hungry and wide awake. After gaining enough courage to escape the security of my cozy room and walk through a dark house, I grabbed a box of cereal and Diet Dr. Pepper. I then proceeded to retreat back to fort (aka my bed) and turn on the TV. I thought for sure Bernie Mac would put me to sleep, but he didn't.

Originally, I thought the only perk of Jonathan not being here was that I was able to watch movies in bed. But I discovered another one: eating in bed. He hates it when I do that. When I was pregnant with Elizabeth I HAD to have a couple of crackers before I got up in the morning. So, there on the night stand, laid my delicious Zesta crackers that I thorough enjoyed as it eased my nauseous stomach. Apparently, I'm a messy eater (but who isn't with crackers? plus I was probably about to pee myself, so I HAD to eat them fast) and I got cracker crumbs all in our sheets. Jonathan would come home after a long day of work, only to hop in to sheets that felt like it had grains of salt in them (truly, it may have been salt. I HAD to brush the salt of the top of the crackers. Do you know was salt does? It swells you up, and that is one thing a pregnant lady does not need--more swelling!). I knew he didn't like it, but he knew the necessity of the whole ordeal.

I miss him. Those two perks aren't enjoyable enough to make me look forward to him leaving. I can't wait until tomorrow night when I can wrap him up in a big hug. I know some people like having there alone time, but I think I'm just too needy. I love it when he is here and I hate it when he is gone. But regardless of where he is, I still feel the closeness of our unity. His absence reminds me of one of my favorite John Donne's poem, "A Valediction: Forbidding Mourning"

5 comments:

Leah F said...

Sweet friend-
I completely understand! There are advantages to watching and eating in bed, but you still have to be alone in that bed, and that is a miserable feeling! I have been counting down the hours until Nathan arrives home tonight (he is taking a plane, thankfully, no offense to Jon), and I know my kids will be thrilled to have Daddy back as well. Your post about missing Jon is very sweet, and I had no idea you harbored a secret love of John Donne! I love you girl and hope to talk to you soon (maybe tomorrow to help you kill some time?)!

Leah F said...

Oops, the post should say "watching MOVIES and eating in bed" not "watching and eating in bed" which sounds strange...

Anonymous said...

I understand where you are. My husband told me that he'll be going to a conference in February for 3 days and I'm already dreading the day!

Zinnada<><

Anonymous said...

Hey buddy! I miss you really bad today! I have just needed my Melissa fix, and cant seem to find it anywhere. Call me! Tiffany Wagoner Smith

Unknown said...

Leah--
I can't help it. I'm a sucker for British Literature, especially 17th century!

Zinnada--
What conference is he going to? Is it the pastor conference at Bethlehem in Minneapolis, MN? If so, we'll have to get him over for dinner!